Clueless

I'm totally clueless today. Firstly, its not a weekend yet I'm blogging. I can't study, I'm having a horibble headache. So my brain has kind of like stop functioning. Here I am getting my brain back on track. Rachel is stressing me out. She keeps saying, " ARGH! I keep getting the questions wrong!!". Hello. So am I. But, I shall not stress-out in public. I hate the education system in Asia. It sucks. All we do is mug all day, and I doubt we are actually learning anything. We are studying for the sake of studying. There is no passion in what we do.

Hence, I just hate it.

Sometimes when I stare into space, my thoughts wonder really really far off. I think of the weirdest things. Anyway, its already mid-week, and she hasn't confronted me. I'm still waiting to clear "the polluted air". I just figured, maybe I'm not the only one suffering in misery because of one miserable person. I think others out there who has been in that person's hands has. Its so not fair for others to suffer in return for one person's pleasure.

The most inspiring quote up-till-now,

"We Ignore The Ones Who Adore Us, But Adore The Ones Who Ignore Us"

When I read this, it just suddenly hit me square in the face.

I have so many people out there who actually do love and care for me. Like my friends, family and etc. Yet I was so blind all this while loving someone who doesn't care two hoots for me. Please forgive me for my ignorance.

Now I've finally opened my eyes and I actually see the whole picture.

And as I said, the new chapter of my life has finally begun.

Is it worth suffering and sacrificing so much for one thing and nothing comes out of it?

I did so much, yet I'm in this state.

I just don't belong anymore.

Moments of life are measured and treasured. Life is shared in laughter and love. Love comes from the peaceful bliss of just being together.

It is a special event ... a moment to last- forever one and the same ... yet far apart in yearsbut, still connected in the cycle of life.

Ever after to be remembered As a sunset too soon! And yet, treasured as a sunshine of love! This is why dreams become memories of love.

Pictures are beautiful

Its Sunday.

Its Sunday again.

Another week has passed, and all I did was eat, sleep and eat even more. Thats it. I'm so gonna fail for Trials. I guess I should just leave it in God's hands. My throat is pretty itchy. I think I'm gonna get sick. Everyone is sick. So I shall join the trend and get sick as well. I hate being sick though, I loose appitite, I get really grumpy and stuff. But what to do. Blame God for bad planning.

Why must 2008 be PMR year? So many events happning this year, and here I am sitting at home waiting for it to come.

Secrets

Who doesn't like secrets? I like secrets. But I hate it when secrets are kept from me. You may think I'm too much or whatever, but sadly that is me. To think I knew everything, but actually I knew nothing. Maybe its better I don't know stuff, says Jolynn and Eva. But the feeling that there is something out there that others know and I don't is killing me. Call me a control freak or whatever, but I'm sure 99.9% of humans on earth are like that. Who likes things being said behind or in some cases infront of you. The irony of it all, I like telling and keeping secrets about others, but I hate people doing that to me.

call me a hypocrite. I Don't Care.

Accepting.

I'm finally accepting it. I've finally started to understand.

And now, I think I'm almost there.

Yup. (let heaven and earth sing) I just can't wait for the day I'm fully cured.

But it really makes me sad to see what we have now is just a shadow of the past. Oh well, life goes on I guess. I'm nobody important that I can keep what I want or control your feelings. Lets just all go on in life. You go yours I go mine. If we meet somewhere in between life's journey. Hope you'll say "hi" atleast. I don't ask you to keep the past engraved in your thoughts, but atleast remember me. Or unless I was really that insignificant.

I have a mission to accomplish by the end of third week. I've finally decided what I want and what I'm gonna say. I'm ready. Now give me your best shot. Say anything you wanna say. I hope its everything. Then maybe things will quiet down and prepare us to face doomsday(PMR).

The Path of Life is long and at times misty. I just realised I was wasting my time standing on one spot and looking back for too long.

I've been on this chapter of life for way too long. I think its about time I put a full-stop and end it. I'm gonna start a new chapter in life, and its gonna be better than this old one. More memoirs and memories. Ok world, I'm moving forward and I'm not looking back.

Its time to move-on

The Countdown

19 days to The Olympics

&

yes 19 days to PMR trials

I'm so feeling the stress. I can't believe that its already mid-July. I can't believe that I'm about to sit for my PMR soon. It just struck me when we got our timetable for PMR. It like just hit me-Eunice you have PMR this year, its in a few months time and you are in deep shit because you aren't prepared yet. I just can't bring myself to believe I'm halfway done with my form 3 life. The best part, I'm not used to from 3 yet.

Year 2008 has whizzed past so quickly that I'm left in a daze. I'm serious. Its the fastest year in my whole life on the face of the earth. Its like as though someone pressed the fastfoward button. Begining of form 3 seemed like just yesterday. Now its already what July. I'm not even sure of what happened from February till June. Its all so blury.

I'm really stressed. I just hate it when people come up to me saying- Oh Eunice don't worry lar, sure gonna get all A's. Sure gonna go science 1. Yea right. It stresses me out even more. I mean yes, the old Eunice can get 7 A's, but now Eunice, I doubt. Incase you guys haven't noticed. I've slacked so much. I'm not in the top 10 anymore. I used to be in the top 5 most of the time.let me stress on the word used. Its really stressful when everyone expects the best from you and you can't seem to live up to everyones' expectations. On top of that, everyone seems to be so ready for PMR and it seems I'm the only one left struggling to get myself on my own two feet. I really can't take it. How am I supposed to like do well. Oh eff lar.

Oh well, I can't wait for Friday. Hahaha. I'm doing an experiment on "The Fly and Its Mate". I'm not gonna explain. 'Cause if I do it will cause some conflict and drama. So people go figure.(you can ask me but I can't confirm I'll tell you.) To joachim, if your reading this, you know what I mean by the experiment, and yes I know your excited as well.

I'm still stressed.

Just Random Ramblings.

Public Holidays.

Thats all I can say. Public holidays here in our beloved country Malaysia are so "unique". Everyone seems to be out and about. Any place you go it full of people doing nothing. It gets really frustrating walking in a mall packed with people with weird and freaky get-ups and your all by yourself.

The big question. What the hell was Eunice thinking going out on a public holiday all by herself?

Don't worry, I'm still sane. The reason I was out in central city by myself is caused by the fact that my "dearly beloved" sister wanted to hang out with her friends and I had to follow for her safety reasons. So there I was walking in City Square admist the crowd like a loner.

But it wasn't that bad. The movie made up for it. Before I get to the movie I have one more thing to say. I don't get it why student price does not count during a public holiday? I mean don't tell me our title as students are also on a holiday?

Oh well, back to the movie. I watched "The Nanny Diaries". Never heard of it? Me too. But I took a risk and thank god I did. The movie was really nice. Plot wise great. Characters, not bad. Chris Evans is acting in it! The story basically right isn't a typical chick flick where girl meets guy they fall in love, end up in bed and get married. It offers something more different, something that actually relates to us. Themes on money, parents and how life goes actually touched me. And yes, I cried during the movie. Its had so many scenes which really touched me. Sadly the movie isn't that popular which really is a shame. So if you have the time, and your thinking about catching a movie, instead of watching Made of Honour or Get Smart, try watching The Nanny Diaries.

Anyway, the past few days has been really really weird and I've found out alot of stuff. I guess its better this way. I mean I finally see the truth and get the picture. I've just realised that I was made a fool but now I finally get it. I know everything I guess you guys can stop hiding stuff from me. Somehow I feel so much better. But I have to say, I'm not going to tell you what you need to know. Its not that I'm evil and a revenge-hungry person. I just feel I think its about time you grew up and make your own decisions. I think that is the only way. Besides, I doubt you would believe me even if I told you. You would proberly think I'm out to do you wrong and that I'm jealous of you guys and I'm just trying to ruin everything for you.

"By the way, I just want to say thank you to, you guys, my dear friends for sticking with me through my problems. Thanks to Jaz for putting up with me and Joachim for finally waking me up to realise how stupid I was hanging on. "

Oh yea, Geraldine. I'm so sorry for messing up the cake!! I know you told me its not my fault and I should not be saying sorry. But I feel really bad.

I'M SO SORRY!

I know FOA was like long long ago, but I finally found the pictures. Well, acutually not all the pics but I got the pictures of the performances I liked! Hahaha.

The Shufflers. They were pretty good. Hahaha. But hate the shirt colours.

The guy on the right is kinda cute right? Oh man, this pic sucks.

Tada!! This was the lead singer I was talking about. Oh well, there wasn't a better picture.

The reason why I went for FOA. But in the end I didn't get to see them dance.

I'm so freaking tired. Oh well, by the way, tzy, I'm not angry already, But I will be if you do that again.

I'm dry of cash.

Happy Happy Birthday.

Is it just me or this week was full of birthdays?

• Jolynn's Birthday
• My sister's Brithday
• Ying Xin's Birthday (my old classmate)
• My grandma's Birthday

and many more which I can't remember now.

So many, my head is kinda spinning. Its either caused by too listening to too many versions of birthday songs, the after effects of too much tea or its just the usual headaches I'm getting daily.

Anyway, I've got the photos we took on friday. The amazing thing right, pictures don't normally turn out how you expect them to turn out. I just figured out I suck at being a photographer. My hand shakes too much. Oh well, so I've like decided to make something like a story out of the photos. Hahaha. Enjoy.

Presenting the new blockbuster story

"Chornicles of Char Chan Teng"

p.s- I know I got the name wrong. Sorry people but I suck at memorising chinese names.


The story begins in a land far, far away called Blur Land.

Let me introduce to you. The Prince and Princess of Blur Land. (kidding) They lived happily together in a big castle full of piggys and basketballs. It was Princess Jolynn's birthday and her Prince Shaun (a.k.a San San) wanted to give her a suprise. What his prncess wanted was the "Amazing Gigantic Cup of Tea". This cup of tea was umm.. really hard to get and it can only be found in Char Chan Teng.

This is the legendary "Amazing Gigantic Cup of Tea". Prince San San was on the mission to find it for his princess. But first he had to over come many trails and tribulations. You see, everyone wanted that huge cup of tea. So many evil people like The Soccerer of Netball and Xavier Land and Black Lala wanted it. Even the people of Blur Land wanted to drink it.

This is the fairy guarding the "Amazing Gigantic Cup of Tea". So Prince San San's first mission was to get it from her. He had a really easy time getting it. You see, this fairy was a really nice fairy. All she wanted in exchange for the cup of tea was a box of really nice cakes and cookies. So he bought for her really nice cakes and cookies and he managed to get the cup of tea. However, that was the easy part. Now he had to bing it back to Blur Land safe and sound.

Suddenly, he saw a fuzzy image apprearing infront of him. It was BLACK LALA! She wanted the cup of tea. She used her "kungfu" skills and managed to get the tea from him. (you guys are supposed to scream at this part).

That is Black Lala with her evil smile. She now has the cup of tea and she is planning to drink all by herself. You see, she didn't know what the word sharing meant. But she had a weekness, she loved taking photos.

Now comes Lame Eunice. She also wanted the tea. She saw that Black Lala had the tea and she decided to come up with an evil plan to grab the tea from her. She asked Black Lala to take a lala photo with her. Black Lala could not refuse that request. While Black Lala was so caught-up in posing for the camera, Lame Eunice grabbed the cup of the from her and dissapeared.

Here is Lame Eunice in her hiding place is Blur Land. She was using the cup of tea to practice her "mak cik kantin" skills on it. Lame Eunice was worried about her future and she wanted to have a back-up job. But she sucked at being a mak cik kantin. Negative Humour Kari told Lame Eunice she sucked at being mak cik kantin and that she had no future. This made Lame Eunice so sad she started crying. Then Negative Humour Kari took that chance to snatch the tea away.

Now Negative Humour Kari brought the cup of tea to the Town of Blur Land and she decided share it with her tea crazy friend Mad Tea Sarah. This was a mistake because Mad Tea Sarah was so crazy over tea that if she sees tea so will go mad. Mad Tea Sarah and Negative Humour Kari started to fight over the tea. They were pushing and shouting. Now evil Eva The Soccerer Netball and Xavier was watching this. She decided this was the best time to steal the tea from them. She knew they were mad over David Archuleta. So she went up to them and shouted " Look up there!! Its David Archuleta flying!!" Both Negative Humour Kari and Mad Tea Sarah looked up and Soccerer Netball and Xavier took the tea.

Her she is, The Evil Soccerer of Netball and Xavier. Just look at that face. Full of evil.

Being the evil person she is, Eva The Soccerer of Netball and Xavier drank the whole cup of tea. She drank and drank and drank evenmore until.....

IT FINISHED!!! OH NO! (now you guys are supposed to be worried. put on that expression now!). When Prince San San found out that the cup of tea finished, he was so devastated. He didn't know what to get for his princess.

So he got for her another thing. It was "Tha Cake of Wishes". This cake was special, it can grant any wish. On her birthday, Princess Jolynn was presented with this cake. She was so happy yet sad because she wanted the tea.

Then she got this birght idea, she decided to wish for the tea. She sat down and concentrated hard on the tea and she made the wish. Everyone present held their breaths waiting to see if the wish was granted.(now you people are supposed to hold your breaths)

Suddenly, there was a fuzzy image on the middle of the table. Everyone could not make out what the image was. Finally the thing stopped fuzzing and......

Lo and behold, it was "The Amazing Gigantic Cup of Tea". Princess Jolynn was so happy. She was so happy that she decided to share the cup of tea with everyone.



Everyone was happy. Everyone grabbed a straw except of Black Lala cause there was no more straws and everyone was happily drinking tea. Everyone except for Prince San San because he was sick of tea. Oh well, the people of Blur Land lived happily ever drinking tea.

THE END

Haha... Thats the story. I know its lame. Yes Kari said the "L" sign was made espeacially for me but that makes me special right?

Anyway, this story is dedicated to JOLYNN!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEARIE!!

Thanks for the times you helped me.

Oh yea, Happy Birthday to everyone who celebrated their birthday this week, yes Janice Happy Birthday!

This song is for you people

I know its kinda late!

BUT HAPPY BIRTHDAY ! (just imagine me singing it)

Birthdays are fun.

I'm Not At Home

Okay...I'm blogging but I'm not at home. It kinda feels weird but oh well I'm ummm...bored. Yea I just came back from City Square. We just celebrated Jolynn's birthday. Yea we ate at a Chinese Restaurant what was its name? Oh I think its Chan Char Teng. Can you believe it. We ate there cause of the tea. Yea they actually give tea to the birthday girl/boy, and well they serve in it such a huge cup. I was so ummm..facinated and amazed. Haha..I drank so much tea and I'm freaking full. Oh well, we walked to CS. Miss Karishma Nair was grumbling about the journey there it seems it was so long. Wth. We kinda took a few pics. The whole thing was such a blur. All I remember was the food, tea and yes..the bill. Can you believe it, the bill came up until RM 107 like that. My eyes almost popped out. Omg. It was so freaking expensive. But I guess it was worth it. The food was great. Haha...Loved the baked rice and other stuff I ate.

Anyway, got tuition later. Eva they all are currently having tuition now (and I'm blogging now). Yea. I have no idea what work there is. Oh well, teacher can't scold me. I know my school Maths teacher loves me(not). I just love disturbing her cause she always distubs me. I could not think today in class cause I was so hungry and she scolded me saying I can't go for recess. Oh man. But it really fun playing around with her. I mean math classes would be so boring. Hahaha. Got so much school work (gawd I'm so rantting crap here). I'm running dry of ideas what to blog about. I guess it must be the fact my brain is half dead and I'm stuffed to the max. I feel like puking.

Oh yea, the services in Malaysia sucks. So much for serving with a smile. We tried to come back with a taxi and the guy was so freaking rude. He was freaking shouting at us. Wtf. I mean we are your customers, we are blardy paying you money. So irritating. I so wanna complain. hahaha..

Okay it almost 4.30. I think I better stop. Tuition is almost over. Gonna go home soon. I'm so tired, I've got a headache. I think I'm dying(right).



Life's random.