The Frustration

My dad is killing me.

Let me spell that

K-I-L-L-I-N-G M-E !

I'm so freaking pissed with him.

I'm already 15 years old.

Im gonna be 16 in like four months time.

I think its time for me to have a little freedom.

Everything I do is cause I try my best not to trouble you.

But every single thing I do is wrong.

I think I'm old enough.

I think I can make my own decisions.
I think I don't need you to make decisions for me or to bother whats happening.

I know your life is hectic enough.

I'm old enough.

I'm sick of being trapped.

I'm sorry but I hate you now.

If only you would stop caring so much and give me freedom.

The more you hold on the more I'll drift away and both of us may regret this in the future.

Daddy, I don't love you.

Finally Answered?

I was asked before, "Who inspires you?"

At that moment of time, I was totally stumped and gave an aswer which I think isn't satisfactory.

As I sat on my bed, thinking, I've actually got the answers.

People who inspire me?

Yes, they did make an impact in my life.

Take a look, some familiar faces, yea, some you may not know.

Who? - Jeffrey Sebelia

- He was the winner of Project Runway Season 3. That was the only series that I
mange watch every episode.

How? - I was inspired by his life story. His parents were divoreced when he was young. Due to the trauma and the he felt it was his fault his parents divorced he went into drugs. He was in and out of rehab many times. However in the end, he managed to pull himself together and made a career for himself as a designer.

Who? - JK Rowling.

-Author of Harry Potter. The creator of Harry Potter, Hogwarts and the wizarding world.


How? - She spent most of her time completing her first Harry Potter book in cafes because her house was not warm enough. She could not even afford to get a proper meal for herself. Her determination and amazing writing skills amazes me.

Who? - Michael Phelps

- An American swimmer who won 8 gold medals in the Beijing Olympics 2008.

How? - I guess the fact that he managed to acheive such a feat really made me wonder how did he do it. He didn't have such a great childhood either and not such a great past. But he somehow managed to start over and now he is the best olympian of all time.

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However, come to think of it, I guess pretty much everyone inspires me. I'm a person who looks at anyones personality and if tht person has a certain quality which is good I would just pick it up. Not everyone is perfect. But everyone is special is their own certain way.

Everyone is a gift from God.

Happy Birthday Dearie!

Today is Jazreel's birthday!

This post is dedicated to you dear!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

May your year be a great one.

May all you dreams and wishes come true.

May God bless you.

May you stay pretty, cute and lovable.

May you enjoy life to the fullest.

Sorry I could not get your prezzy on time.

Really sorry!

Happy happy birthday!

Smiling To Myself

I'm currently smiling to myself.

I'm happy today.

Place your bet my dear readers, who made me smile?

Ah well, its a secret.

Class was so fun today.

the last class of the year.

My teachers this year rock!

They are so fun.

My class rocks!

Hmmm.. Ben is a big bully. Just you wait.

I'll have my revenge.

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Okay, I'm in that mood again.

I'm in my reflective mood.

Am I really feeling it again?

Its like, everytime I see you I just feel so...in another world.

I feel like I'm in a different dimension, a whole new world.

Just a simple conversation makes my day.

Just a simple wave and I know that my whole day can't go wrong.

Anything you say puts a smile on my face.

Every second I don't see you, something seems missing.

Yet, I can't tell you this for I may destroy our friendship.

Gah, I'm being all mushy!

I must stop!

Eunice stop being mushy!

I CAN'T!

I think. I think. I..I can't say it.

I don't know.

I don't wanna get hurt.

I don't wanna get involved.

I don't want this feeling.

Will I ever walk with you?

"everything's nothing without you"

I'm gonna cry.

School Honour

Three cheers for CONVENT!

We WON!

Yea, yea, I know the competition was yesterday and I should have blogged yesterday, but I was tired okay.

Give me a break.

Anyway, the friendly matches both for volleyball and netball were both equally entertaining.
Convent rocks!

Ah well, I embaressed myself infront of a few 50 odd pupils by showing-off my not-so-good volleyball skills.

Gah, thats over and we won in the end. We still rule. And it was really memorable to be a part of the event. I mean it was really nice that I was actually given a chance to play. It was my very first volleyball match in my whole life.

Netball. Sweet revenge for our netball team. We beat SIGS. Good job to our dear netballers. You guys deserve the win after what happened during MSSD. My heart goes out to you guys!

I was screaming and cheering my lungs out. It was worth the extra effort. Talk about being "semangated" Convent.

I LOVE MY SCHOOL!

Hahaha. Yup this is the volleyball team. I guess that would be my first yet last time in a volleyball team.

TADA! The netballers. Great effort guys!

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This week. Its sports week for me.

I played a record of 4 different sports.

YAY ME!

Monday. Its volleyball. Yea, 3A played against 3C in the finals and yes, 3D won. But it was a great game lar. Although I got smacked by the ball I did have fun. Volleyball skills improving!

Tuesday. Netball game. Finals again 3A versus 3D but the ending was different. 3A won. Yippies!

Wednesday. No games today. It was Christmas concert!! Hahaha. If not I would have played hockey.

Thursday. Ping-pong. I was not supposed to play this, but ended up partnering Jolynn to play in doubles. We thought we were gonna loose in our first game seeing both of us never touched the ping-pong bat let alone play a proper game. But believe it or not, we won both our games and went to the finals. talk about miracles happening.

Friday. Supposedly softball day but we played badminton! Haha. I'm now tired and aching all over. Yet it was fun. Playing with teacher versus Chris and watching Geraldine run around.

Yawning now. I need to recharge my batteries.



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In school, I watched The movie, A Walk To Remember. Yes I cried. No suprises there. I was moved by the characters. I'm gonna watch it again.

Will I ever get to hold your hand?

A long time coming.

Christmas Is All About Love

"Christmas is all about love,

Love from the Father from above."

"For God so love the world, he gave us his only Son."

I saw the mime, and I cried. It touched me somewhere deep inside.

In realisation for God's infinite love.

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Wow, I just had one of the most hectic day of my entire life.
Christmas Concert.
From Praise and worship right up to the Nativity Play.
I was sweating the whole day.
I was running and panicking for most of the day.



Finally the whole europhia is over.
I'm breathing normally again.




I love Christmas!








A Christmas Scene. Pretty right?







Huge Tree!


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Whew, tired-ness was brought to the next level.

Netball, volleyball, concert??

That was just the summary of the first three days after PMR.

Tomorrow's the "muhibah" match against SIGS.

Its kinda of a miracle I'm playing cause of the fact I can't play volleyball for nuts.

I guess its like a blessing if your not the majority race I think.


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I love music.

Classical. Rock. Soul. Techno. Rap. Alternative. Punk. Metal.

From everything to anything.

I guess I can say music is like drugs to me.

I didnt' inherite my parents musical talents.

Its a big dissapointment.

But I guess, I'm lucky enough to inherite their love for it.

I love the guitar and the piano.

Lets just say, I ain't that good at both. I've been told that a thousand times.

But atleast its something.

However, I'm giving up one as a sacrifice for my studies.

My gonna miss playing the piano.

I'm actually tearing.

Freedom Without Limits

Please kindly refrain from saying anything that will stress me out.

Books and testpapers have been burnt.

Leap for joy and have fun till your sick.

ITS OVER

I'm back form the longest confinement in my life.

I guess I'll be going thru the longest relapse now.

Its officially official, that faithful day, or should I say

"That Faithful Week"

is now the past.
Its history.

PMR has just been an irritating pest, pain in the arse thingy.

I was prevented from the TV, computer, the radio world, blogging, smsing and novels just to re-study three years worth of crap which I'm pretty sure I'll never put into good use or even remember it in the future. People like me tend to study stuff and delete it immeadiatly after the exams.

I doubt I remember what is transpiration or what happened to Parameswara.

Briefly explaining my PMR experience.

BM, just plain crappy

BI, could have done better

MATHS, could have been less careless

SCIENCE, just kill me now

SEJARAH, I'm feeling a bit confident

GEO, the worse geo paper I've sat for

KH, unreasonably harder than expected

Its pretty obvious the education ministry or the government hates the people born in 1993.

We are classified as the guinea pigs.

UPSR, format changes around mid-term, PMR is the toughest in like three years.

What next?

We can only guess.

Okay, I'm gonna stop bringing up the depressing stuff.

I've only slept 6 hours in my previous two nights.

Wicked right?

Loved the times spent at Rach's house.

WARNING, never watch Forgetting Sarah Marshell if you want to not have dirty thoughts.

I just realised, Kari can't use chopsticks and she hates fish.
Kari, Kari, fish is brain food you know.
hahaha..

I've finally tried bowling. I like it. Its pretty fun and I'm pretty good. Hahaha. However I sprained my thumb.

Anyway, yesterday, was pretty dissapointing he wasn't around. I did see him on Friday though. But well, the dissapoinment is still there.

Back to the topic. The BBQ was fun.

Cooking the chickien and sausages, watching the guys try to figure out how to cook sausages without burning them and playing truth or dare kinda made up for the horrendous PMR week.

Oh yea, it was really funny watching Greg strut around in heels.

I came back smelling like smoke.

I figured out.

I did really stupid stuff before.

Gosh I wish I had not done any of it but I'm really sorry.

I'm pretty sad to see Jeok Lynn and Irwin leave. It could have been me.
But I was too cowardly and simply screwed my entrance test.
May God bless them and be with them.
I'm gonna miss them.

Freedom is like being on a swing.

You feel like your flying and you have no boundries.

All I want is freedom to do what I want and be what I wanna be.

I want to be free.

Madness for Now.

FRIDAY,

its almost over. Raya holidays are almost over.

PMR is here!

Reminder to those out there who still are in denial that we are just about week more to PMR.

ITS PMR PEOPLE! WAKE-UP!

As for wake up calls, I need one myself.

Didn't study much this holidays.

Bet most no no,in fact all of my dear friends have mugged their arses of this Raya.

Most likely this will be the last time blogging until

"that faithful day".

I changed my blog song.

Its "With Me" by Sum 41

I totally love that song!

Its so nice =)

I dunno if Joachim visited my blog yet.
I bet he is gonna say the song sucks. I never really understood his taste in songs.

Weird guy.

I don't want this moment to ever end.

Where everything's nothing without you.

I wait here forever just to, to see you smile,

Cause it's true, I am nothing without you.

"Part of the lyrics from the song"

I just realised, I still like reading Harry Potter. I thought I've out-grown it.

Anyway, I still don't get why everyone loves Harry.

I love Ron more. Hahaha.

He is so cute.

Cuter. Duh. And more muscular. Love those eyes.

I was called boy-crazy today.

Hmmm..am I?

Maybe I am. Thats bad right?

Oh well, what can I do?

Whacky people acting sexy. I'm still laughing.

Goodbye for now.