Tired?

I'm totally exhausted. PHEWW. I was out the whole freaking day.

So, in the end I went for FOA. I wasn't supposed to go after experiencing a terrible experience last year. Thanks to the freaking sketch done by the girls from SIGS I had nightmares for 1 whole month. Dude! I mean they threw bras and condoms into the crowd! WTF?! So, I almost didn't go this year. But in the end I went. This so shows the indecisive side of me.

Anyway, this year the performances were way better. The bands were better, the sketches were better (no gross sketches with bras and condoms flying about) and yes there were cute guys this year!! I actually kinda enjoyed myself.

There was this band that the lead singer was pretty cute (his singing style reminded me strongly of Danny!) and his voice was damn good. I was screaming like mad and I was melting in my seat. HAH! That made my day. They sang When I'm Gone by 3 Doors Down and Beat It by Fall Out Boy. But Mister Joachim Goh didn't like their version of Beat It. Too bad. I liked it. I just love the lead singer's presence on stage. The other bands were pretty cool. I'm still in awe at the talent I saw today. Every band had really good guitarists. I will never be able to play half as good as any of them. Shucks. Unfortunately, Rachel Yeo and Sarah don't apprciate different genre of music and they were laughing half the time. I got quite pissed. Espeacially with "yoyo what's up" and her blardy hair. Anyway, the Sdj band..ummmm...they were pretty good. Hahaha. But whats with the name "Destiny Brothers"?

In the crowd there. Saw some eye candy. Kari saw this guy and she claimed he looked like Collin Pharell. But he so didn't. I spotted another cute guy. However he is already taken. This year was crowded.

I miss christmas, music, and boring life. Oh man, PMR coming. I got tuition next week. I'm feeling down and tired. I want to laugh! I love my shoes! hahaha random? I know.

Oh one more thing, Joachim Goh, the crowd was so not screaming your name when you came. HAHA!! And yea, your hair is actually looking much better. =)

I love music

Dear Diary..

Sometimes I think I have some extraordinary powers. I feel sometimes my mood controls the weather. Today for example, I was just feeling plain shitty. On the verge of suicide(a bit over-dramatic I guess). And the weather was just so saddeing. It was cloudy and the wind was blowing so strong. Looking at the surroundings I just felt a sense of lost in me, an empty feeling. Then it started to rain. At that point I just wanted to cry. But no I cant possibly cry in school right? I mean, no I will never let anyone see the tears I shed.

It just dawned upon me, not everyone gets what they want. So I guess its just a matter of time before you get what you truly deserve. When that happens should I care? or should I just sit and let you face it yourself. You never did anything for me, so why should I even care?

Its time to let go. But for me its easier said than done. How can I let go? I see you every single week and I just can't seem to accept the fact that it just ended just like that. Not even a fight occured. Nothing can make me hate you. I just hate myself for that. No matter what you do it just makes me hurt myself even more. And things get worse after I find out certain things. I just wish I could refresh my life. After all that has happened I'm getting so sick of continuing living in this state while I see another living in a very "loving and caring environment" yet actually have the nerve of complaining infront of me that thats not enough to satisfy you. Your just being plain tactless and selfish.

I hate being used. Do you know that the things you ask me to do every single time really hurt me. The feeling is like slowly dragging a sharp point across the most sensitive part of your skin. But I can't seem to tell you this cause I can't bring myself to fight with you. So I just go along doing what you want me to do.

I just don't get it. People cut themselves to actually feel the pain they are feeling. Yea right. I just hate it when people do it for attention. I mean if you really do it to ease the pain, then why do it on your hands and show it to the whole world that your cutting yourself. There are so many other parts of your body to be used to vent our your pain, anger and frustration right? But using your hands and flashing them publicly? Thats what I call attention seeking. I know how it feels to get hurt, but I don't go showing people I cut myself. I don't need people's pity and concern. Its just making them worried. I will solve my own problems or just get hurt by myself. I don't want others to feel the same hurt I do. Thats what I call being selfish. Cut yourself, fine. But please do it discreetly. Its just really sickening when you tell the whole world what your doing.

Fakers. Yup I absolutely hate fakers. But apparently I'm one now. Why? Because to counter a faker you need to be a faker youself. Just play along and soon you will find out the true colours of the so called "innocent, blur and sweet" person. I've seen your true colours and I'm just playing along and waiting patiently for you to fall into your own trap and then I shall see what your gonna do. It just gets so sickening when you freaking moan and groan about your parents being to strict. Dude! wake up and realise eventhough they are so strict your still doing they worst things imaginable behind their backs. Freak. Your so eff-ing bold. Every single time you complain I just feel like slapping you stupid face and telling you the fucking things you have been doing. So much for strict parents.

Ok, I guess tomorrow I've gotta get a grip of myself. I can't let my friends suffer cause of me. So I gotta smile more. Heck how I feel. So time to use my amazing cover-up skills.

I feel slightly better.

Dumb Week. Cute Guys.

This week is officially the worst week in year 2008. Seriously. Every single thing went wrong from school right up to the freaking weather. School. Oh man whats happening to it. The weather, its just so screwed up. Its super hot one moment and the next moment its raining like mad. I think the Apocolypse is here. Thats good isn't it. No PMR!!(fat chance). I'm currently having a splitting headache. I think its cause I'm trying to memorise a script in B.M. Don't ask, my "wonderful" B.M teacher Encik Lim picked me of all people to do this oral exam infront of some freaking jabatan fella. Wtf. There are 38 people in my class why oh why me?

This stinks.

Oh well..Euro Cup is the "fever" of the moment. I bet Netherlands is gonna win. I hope they win. (go Arjen Robben!!). I can't wait for FIFA. Have you ever wondered why Malaysian football suck? I'm still wondering and I still don't know why. Our players can't play for nuts and they don't even look good.(so much for "semangat patriotisme") Oh well, Malaysia sucks in everything.

There are a few things that make me really happy.

• chille crabs
• chocolates
• blogging
• playing the piano and guitar
• making memorable presents
  

AND

CUTE GUYS!!!

Oh yea. I've fallen in love all over again with The Click 5 and Mcfly!! Ahhh..

great music+to-die-for looks=eunice screaming her lungs out when she sees their pictures.

LOL!

The Click Five. Cute and Hot. I just love them. Joanne just converted me into a fan thanks to her blog. Kyle is just cute, I just love Joey.

MCFLY!!! O.M.G! Every freaking member of this band is MORE THAN CUTE. ahhh...I'm melting. Harry Judd(he is the guy with the white tie). He is cute. He is cute. He is cute. He is cute. HAHA!!

Oh well, since cute guys make me happy and since I'm not so happy I'm gonna blog about cute guys! Oh gawd. I'm nuts.

Skandar Keynes. Ok. Remember Edmund "The-Good-For-Nothing-Fella". Oh man. He turned into someone quite hot. I'm not that crazy like Shereena over him. But he is someone to look out for in the future. You know "THe Future Hottie".

Ashton Kutcher. A playboy but he is JUST TOO HAWT!! Just look at his face and tell me he is not cute. Oh yea if you do that your blind.

He is the only reason why I hate myself for missing Fantastic Four in the cinemas. I'm not a die hard fan of Fantastic Four. But Chris Evans made me. hahaha. I mean who can pull off prancing around in a tight suit and acutally look good?

I'm a person who would never watch Princes Diaries 2. But thanks to the fact that the movie is full of cute guys I was squealing everytime Nicholas(Chris Pine) appeared.

Remember Michael in Princes Diaries 1? The fella who liked Mia. Yea. Lol. He was really cute in the movie. He was you know the sweet musician that i so fell head over heels with. Too bad I could not find a better pic.

Oh man. I forgot what is his name...But he acted in the show Everwood. Yup why am I mad over him? Not really about his looks but more of the fact he plays the piano really really really well..lol.

Oliver James. Haha. He acted in What A Girl Wants. I so love he accent and yes he is a musician. Hahahaha I admit I'm a sucker for guys who are into music. Oh yea. I love his eyes!

He is the reason why I watch X-men. Yup. James Marsden was cyclops and yes he is the really hot guy in 27 Dresses(the guy which Rachel is mad about) and yes he acted as the dumb prince in Enchanted. Heck. I love him as cyclops. SO COOL!!!

Shawn Ashmore. He was Iceman in X-men 2. OMG. HAHAHA! I love x-men because of him and cyclops. His eyes are so sparkly.

Fred and George! haha. These two are cute in their own special way. I just love their sense of humour. The major plus factor why I adore them.

Rupert Grint. Who cares about Harry Potter when there is Ron. From cute small boy to extremly hot guy! ahhh...I remember screaming in the cinema with Kari where he appreared on screen with just a singlet. LOL!

hahaha..I don't know if you know him. But Jolynn does. Its Utt! haha. I know weird name but cute right? By the way, he is part Thai.

I know the world thinks I'm mad cause I like Danny just cause he is gay. But he is a cute gay ok. I love his dramatic-ness. Hahaha. He's so CUTE!!

Lol. Kari is so ganna scream. Yup David Archuleta. Lol. Love his eyes, his small boy look, his voice, his attitude, in short everything. But I don't think I will wanna marry him. Heck he's cute.

AHHHH!!! Harry Judd! Ok he is the drummer of Mcfly. You know the guy in the white tie in the Mcfly picture above. he is super cute. THE EYES!! I so wanna marry him(dream on). Oh how can God make someone so cute?

Why is Supernatural better than Ghost Whisperer? The answer : Supernatural has to cute guys in it! Lol. Yup. The reason why I actually follow Supernatural is cause of Jared and Jensen (aka Sam and Dean). Ahhh...

Fernando Torres. Hahaha! He's Spanish, He is cute, He is hot what is there not to like about him?

Ricardo Kaka. OK. I had this major crush on him for like 3 years. It was like this mania over him. I would scream everytime i see his pic. I still do but not as bad as last time. But you can't blame me. He is soooooooo cute. hahahaha.

Lol. I almost forgot about them. OMG how can I??? The Jonas Brothers! hahahaha. So cute!!

Oh. I'm so high now. Hahaha.
But I need to sleep. But I can't. Gotta go memorise my script. damn.

Oh yea, its 11.30.

Gonna be 12 soon. so.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHRIS!

I'm nuts.

Reminiscenes

I so need actually finish my geo folio. But while I was trying to finish it...I started to get all nostalgic. Oh man..all thoughts of the past started coming back. So here I am now getting it off my mind so I can finish my folio. I guess this is gonna be a long one.

I've been in this world for 15 years. So many things happened be it from happy stuff to sad stuff and even the comical moments which makes you want to roll on the floor with laughter. But the best memory in life are the memories of my friends. Yea I know sometimes I show that I don't care about them and stuff. But deep down inside, I know that I can never live without them and the person I am now is all thanks to you guys. I can't help you all much, but I think I'll try my best to help you guys as you helped me. In no specific order here are the people who I owe my life to.

Naomi Wong. A girl with the BIG SMILE! Lol. Loads has changed for Nao. She has come along way from the netballer she was in primary school to the netballer she is now. Remember how she used to bully alot of people(can you imagine this smiling girl was a bully).Nao thanks for the times you made me smile and thanks for the time you "diciplined" us when we were too noisy and mad. Nao, keep striving for your dreams ok?

Ok. Karishma. What can I say? The drama mama. All the mad and crazy moments all thanks to this one here. Any bus trip can never be boring with her around. Remember how she used to irritate people with her madness and she managed to turn some people mad as well (example Jolynn). Remember how she fell and knocked her head on the chair in std 5? And now she's stuck in her "David Archuleta" world. But all in all, Thanks Kari for the weird yet memorable moments. Just live life how your living it now.

This is The Rachel Chong. Another mad one. I still remember how we met. And it wasn't a pleasent memory. But I guess as time went by, we became much closer. Her eccentric-ness and her "cowbell" has kinda grown on me. We've been through quite alot. I'm really thankful that we did meet. So Rachel, be strong and just accpet life as it is. Things happen for a reason. Look at it in a positive way and things will be just fine.

Boy it was hard getting a photo of Amanda. But This is a nice one. Amanda Tan, one of the few frineds who I will never forget. We've been through alot and I just love thoso times. Remember primary school? She was the one with the camera(thanks to her we have tons of great pics). My softball partner for 3 years. Sorry for misunderstanding you. Just so you know, I won't forget you until maybe I become senile. Anyway Amanda, just be who you are. Don't worry I'm always there to just sit and listen if you need me.

Jolynn Ong. Ok the girl I used to bully back in std 6. Jojo..I'm so sorry. I was so stupid. Jolynn. Known for many things, blur queen, the girl with many admirers and etc. But then girl, boy you helped me alot during the end of last year especially during the times when I just could not face life. Thanks for all the advise. I don't think I would be able to have passed that period of life if not for you. Thanks for all the love and care. Jolynn, do your best k? In anything just put your mind heart to it and you'll be fine.

Tan Zhi Ying. Lol. I doubt I'll forget her. Her mengada-ness somehow at times can be really funny. Std 6, someone was sobbing after a certain dance on teacher's day. Someone was also sobbing for the whole end of std 6. I still can remember in form one, I didn't talk to her for half a year and I don't remember why I did that. Oh well, I was dumb. Anyway, Zhi Ying your gonna be fifteen and all I want to say is just try and grow up a tiny bit. I'm not saying change like mad. Just put in more thought before doing anything and minus some mengada-ness please. But I still luvya for who you are.

Lol. Its Eva's turn. Eva, I still remember this girl with glasses playing with pencils in Std 4 but boy how things change. Now I see this well-respected, responsible and sensible girl with full of responsibilities. Oh yea, I owe you an apology too. Sorry for the times I was mean, again I was dumb. Haha..still remember how you always got me into trouble in Std 5 with Pn. Elizabeth cause your thoughts were always wondering off somewhere during practises. Eva, everyone has their own weaknesses. No one is perfect and no one can try to please everyone at the same time. Just be yourself and do your best. Don't wory about things too much. Highschool life is meant to be enjoyed.

Geraldine. My Cooking Partner!! Haha..Geraldine, ok I was not very close to her in primary school all I knew about her was she loves her bag so much the she would kill you if you dirty her bag evennthough its just a little bit. Yea, a neat freak also. Oh well, little miss neat here has turned into one pretty young woman (with alot of admirers). Anyway, yea thanks for all the times when you patiently listened to my problems and nonsence and my terrible cooking skills LOL! Geraldine, your one person who I'm not worried about. Just stay the way you are and continue cooking to your heart's content!

Chi. From the naughty girl she was in primary school and Elyssa's partner in crime now she has turned into "the cool one". Lol..yea thats how I see Chi. This girl is just really funny. I remember how in form 1 we used to skip softball like mad and come up with the weirdest excuses but somehow softball has turned into our life. Chi, don't worry about how things are going now. It will be better for sure. Just be strong and I'll help you as much as possible.

Amanda Chong. Omg. I just can't stop laughing when I see this pic. The PRO at Twister. Haha. There was once during training when I tried bullying her by kicking the softball even further she got so angry she pushed me over the goal post and I fell into the goal. lol..Oh man, and how she grumbles about Zhi Ying during training and starts singing weird weird songs. Trainings in the hot sun are turned into memorable ones thanks to her. Goodness Amanda, just continue being mad. =)

Elyssa. Loads of things has happen since primary. Good and bad. I remeber this girl here was The Famous Girl and every teacher remembered her name because she was always a handful. And it seems like just yesterday when you threw your bottle at my face cause I threw staples at you during Pengakap Class..Ely, good luck in the future ok? Just try your best and failure is just part and parcel of life.

Yen Huay!! The ball of happiness. Never fail to make us smile..Just keep smiling k?

Hui Yi. I've kinda lost contact with you eventhough we are in the same school. But I still remember in primary. She was the ummm...not mad yet mad girl. LOL. and yes she is also part of my build up to who I am. Hui Yi. Just so you know I still remember you.

Joanne. Yup. I used to be quite close with her. But sadly we driftted away. I remember in Std 6 after extra class we wolud sit and talk for hours about god know what. Lol. Oh well...Anyway, Joanne, if your reading this THANKS for everything =)

OK I've got a few more people to mention but I don't have their pics.

Florence, wish we could talk like how we used to

Rachel Ang, LOL!! you have changed alot. Last time you were pretty girly now omg. lol. anway rachel be positive ok? Believe in yourself, believe you can do it, we are all there for you!

Nevell Koh. In Std 1 I thought Nevell was a freak cause she never said a word before. Apparently she talks alot and she still does. Lol. Nevell jia yu ok?

To those who have shifted, Nikita, Dzafira, Anjie you guys hope your doing well there.

Anyway, yea here are some pics of long long ago. Sit back, relax and enjoy!

WHEN WE WERE YOUNG

CHECK OUT THE FACES

SWEET MOMENTS

Omg, I'm finally done. Hope you guys enjoy this. Gotta sleep.
Oh thanks to amanda tan, geraldine and everyone for the pictures!


I feel better